.....I fell

I knew the first time we spoke that you were going to be special to me... I felt like I could be special to you as well.. Over time, we clicked. I felt like our bond was getting stronger. You told me things I never thought I would hear from anyone. I... felt loved. I made a mistake; A big one. I tripped and fell so hard for you. I loved you. I....love you, but it seems like love has changed. I miss our long conversations of who loves who more. I miss the feeling of butterflies when you call. The anticipation of what's next or the constant smile that used to sit plastered on my face when a text came in. Love, now seems like it's out of convenience Conversations, a last minute thought. Saying I love you, a thing of the past... I was wrong about love with others in the past. But what I had felt or feel is..or shall I say, was real. I'm fading and it hurts. I can't teach you how to love me if you don't want to learn I can't love you the way you need if you're pushing it away.. Maybe it's me.. but I love hard and it's not hard to see things have changed..it seems like your heart is elsewhere I feel like I should keep my distance, because this confusion is real.