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Ya know, I never saw my future as being lonely. I did, however, assume I would be alone.

Of course it was after the realization that the "I do" forever...only did we do until it was done 🙃.

Life seems so much different now as time passes by. You can find yourself in situations that could possibly lead to a sweet and beautiful romantic experience that will have you thanking God for bringing someone so special into your life orrrr you realize that at this age, most (men and women alike) have trust issues and do not want to take that chance of meeting Mr. or Mrs. Wrong everrr again.

I notice I don't have a problem meeting men. I meean I can talk to anyone about anything lol. Myyy current issue is that in my heeead everyone has a potential to be thaaat one and it's far from true. I will turn every "ship" into a fairytale and play these random scenarios in my head (I know I'm trippin). I see myself being with someone who wants to spend all of this time with me. He can literally not get enough of me lol. Listennn.. his adoration of me is at an 11. As alwaaaays, this is in my heeead and it is what it is. Played out wrong..again. I was never a part of their equation. There was never an "us." There was no YOU and ME. It was always YOOU and thennn there was ME. In reality, not one person I have met felt like this...which is ok (I guess.) I get that we are no longer of the age where we are the focus of someone else's life or atleast shouldn't be. The majority of people (myself included) have had a full life before your "other" even came into the picture. We are all busy and if it's meant to be anything, they will make time and it will be just that. 🤷🏾‍♀️

Reality...It gets cold sometimes lol..