....but maaaaybe I just need a hug 🙃

Random thought, but aren't they all?

Do you ever have those moments where you're just moody for no apparent reason? I cannot be the only one. My issue is that my moodiness can last for several hours and/or several daaays (give or take). Extreeeme... I know. I can feel a mood swing coming on and literally only want to talk to maaaybe 3 people. Thennn I go into hermit mode. I would rather not talk when I'm in these schmoods. I won't ignore you. I'm not thaaat rude. We can talk, but please keep it short lol.

Now that I'm older(ahem)**side-eye, I can tell when my energy is just low or off. I'm not sad or depressed, but moreso, exhausted, mentally.. sooo I shut down **shrugs**. Now....These "shut downs" are completely different than before. I used to shut down when I didn't know how to process my emotions (still an issue at times). I would not talk to people for days until I was able to get myself together. I'm finally (kinda/sorta) in a space where I'm learning to control these shut downs. I'm trying to get a better grip on the negative energy I absorb. I'm not perfect. I've said this plenty of times before. I. AM. AN OVERTHINKER. So best believe, If that seed is planted, I am going down hill from there. There goes my attention. There goes my peace annnnd there. goes. the little bit of saaanity I had left for that day.

I noticed last week that I have some people in my life that can turn my ugly moods off..Like a switch, I'm instantly in a better mindset (mentally). It could literally be just a text message asking how I'm doing. Now I don't tell everyone I'm in a bad space, but I do find comfort in knowing I have people who genuinely care for me and can tell when something is just off. It's a good feeling right?! Honestly, no one can do this "life thing" alone.Instant comfort. **my ice box of a heart slowly melting**...( I can be soo dramatic sometimes). Hilarious. This is normal right.. or am I trippin?